hUiLiN 
Friday, June 30
birthday confession
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ah sok!
17 years old le.
so sads. u dun have me to celebrate ur birthday with. has.
still, treasure our many years of friendship dispite all the disagreements and competitions. has. u beta work hard in ur JC lo. i noe u ll never see my blog one so wad i write, u wun noe too. so i can say bad things about u. hahas.
well done, princess.
wahhaha! wahhaa! i m so happy. for today, i m not going to care if im failin all my subs. i m celebratin. i cant close my mouth for the past few hours. i m so happy. happy happy. finish exams lo. hmmm. physics is quite ok for me la. but chem. hahas. no comment. i was doing the paper, and mi mind was thinking should i pretend dead in the middle of the hall not? cause the paper is too tough, and had no time to think. left so many blanks here and there. hmmm now, i m too concerned if i pass or fail le. i hope i fail, with higher marks. yeah.. looking forward to the next four days. no school. until next tues. no lessons=) slacking time. so shiok. tis is how i m goin to plan mi mini hols.
day 01:
going out with my mom. gotta buy long sleeved blouse for council invest. has. my mom bringin me to SI MA LU dere. she loves there so much, cause its a gathering place for many senior citizens. sounds so mean. but i like to go there too. because of the bugis village. they sell so many cheap stuffs. mayb i ll grab some cds/vcds on the way. has. my mom said she wan to treat me lunch. which s like so impossible. because 4 out of 5 trips there, we always go there for ju kuey (rice cakes) onli.. so cheapstake. as a result, i m stingy on food too. has.
day 02 n 03:
since ethel said she meetin me tml to exchange korean dramas, i ve decided. to stay at home the whole weekend to watch her show - love at harvard. hmmms. hope she ll remember our date tml. oh. mayb do some chemistry lo.. the chem bonding worksheet. YAYAYA! forgot somebody's present. oh dear.
day 04:
the last day! and the saddest too. i dunno. but dulcia had asked me out with the tribal group lo. dunno whether shuld go not. thats all.. boring person, boring life. not really much to say. except i went crazy an hour before the chem paper, and keep spouting nonsense all along. until now too. sians. going to think my story liaos. hmmm new angle le. the main characters finally met! yeah. and i m deciding shuld the setting be in a house by the sea or a condo? any ideas? the best place for a pair of lovers to live? please tag. oh ya, finally. not to forget.
Sunday, June 25
yeah, 1 down 5 to go!
today should be marked as a significant day. its my first time taking common test in JC. hahas. i had GP today. hmmm. overall, i think the paper is easy. BUT, i dunno how to do.. compared to other colleges' examination papers MS GOH had given us, today's paper shuld consider small feat. but like always, i m screwed up in summary and some of the questions. 120 words. and the paragraph utters nothing of what the question wants. crap. that means i have to infer from the passage, read between the lines whatever people call them. and it turns out my summary cant even exceed the criteria. argh..
the vocabulary section. the words are what i often see. but i forgot the meanings.. omg, i cant believe it.. i check the thesauras, and found out i got some of the meanings wrong.. i cant rmb the last one.. s so annoying. monstrous = terrifying. what in world do i put terrifying? i was thinkin whether to put horrible or terrible.. hais. anyway still wrong. wad else? obsession! i came by the word last night, and even checked the dictionary. yet, today it came out and i couldnt remember. tis s so dumb. i know obsess = preocupied, engross. but i m not sure if there is such a word called preocupation. so i put domination because i remember vaguely somewhere there is such a word dominate appearing in my memory when i checked the word. wadever.. so pei chey le. anyway, is not the first time i failed english. BUT I WAN TO PASS! help me buddha!
look on the bright side. u dun live because of a single tree, there are many others out there... five subjects left, and i wonder how am i going to study? after that, i have 4 days at home. that means i m going OG. i need a wallet, my OP wallet had endured sunny and stormy days, and now is OLD.. anyway, my wife is back from australia lo. yeah! i saw the sms after my exam. ultimately, family and friends come before other stuff.
i love my family! :)
-princess hours, when is ur VCD coming out?-
Saturday, June 24
brzz..
they are working again.. oh no... i dun wan the noise.. no no no.. not on the day before mi exam..
Thursday, June 22
noise noise noise. i cant concentrate la!
oh my god! next week is common test liaos, or rather this sat will be the GP paper. and what i m still doing? blogging. writing my story. watch tv. argh. i m so distracted. so dead. yet in the mornings, i will hear drilling noises from the ground floor. now, i really hate the GOV. why do they have to do a senior citizen corner at my block? not that i m not complaining.. i welcome the idea. but do they have to do it durin the last week of JUNE hols? i felt like shooting them. they start work at 10, and do not end until quite late in the afternoon. its so annoying!!! how am i gg to study? actually i m quite prepared to flunk this CT. AHs..
the T.As had already announced that after the overall school ranking for the common test, they are going to rank us in in council with our results. omg, that s so cruel.. can go cranky le. hope i m not at the bottom. and talkin about GP, i m having cold hands le. s so.. horrifying. wad else is going on in my life? the issue of money. hmmm. the cause to why i m so broke, almost bankrupt, living on my mom's money is because i spent too much on kdramas le. hais. but when i watched the advertisment on channel u, the one on save the last dance for me, acted by Ji Sung and Eugene, i was there laughing. i watched finish le. wahhaha, and people have to wait for two eps. per week. actually that sounds quite mean. but i swear right now, i m waiting just for the princess hours VCD, but it hasnt quite released into the market yet. only that, so dun worry, da jie. i think i can save enough for a meal in marche or carls junior, even though i dunno what they are selling in their restaurant.. yups.
annoyed. so dun step on my nerves. but then i m appearing less on MSN.
so many things to do, yet so little time, is because i dunno how to priortise. i m so dead. alice's present hasnt completed yet. so chiam. that s one of the reasons why i dun like giving out presents. because i like to give got 'feel' present, always drag so long. yay! my novel s hitting page 60!
@i wan to watch PRINCESS HOURS la@
-period-
Sunday, June 18
pirates of the caribbean!
Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?
hahas. i was quite surprised that i m elizabeth swann. i wanted to be will turner. hes so shuai,. but many will think that johnny depp's role - jack sparrow is much funnier. and i agree. oooo. cant wait to watch pirates of the caribbean: dead man's chest! wah... so excited. but i still have to wait a month more. dot dot dot.
Saturday, June 17
fish & co. hmmms.
i guess i have a problem with food. the more expensive a meal is, the harder it is for me to digest the chow. i went out with the gang today. gang means susan, christle plus me. i cant believe we walked the whole day. we actually met at city hall, but as susan was late. me and christle cannot ta-han the hunger pangs, so we went to long john for lunch. as susan appeared only an hour later, christle and i shopped around marina square. when she reached. wahhaha. i heard of the candy empire from christle's mouth. and i remembered the wonderful "wonka nerds rope" that shi ping offered me while we were in camp. we made susan to bring us there. is at the millenia walk.
CANDY EMPIRE. is damn shiok.
all the sweets, chocolates, biscuits were piled up like a mountain. oooh.. i found where i truly belong, my heaven. is so wonderful. there is a large variety of snacks, which are for pple who have sweet tooth like me. they are all imported from dunno where. and of course, the price doesnt cost cheap. but the goods are yummy. i bought wonka nerds rope and wonka raspberry sherbet. sherbets is sour, and mi mom likes it alot. zzz. she has sour tooth. oh my, i think i m beginning to sound like my mom. naggy naggy naggy.
later we went fish & co. for dinner. hmmm. personally, i feel s quite ex. hahas. i cant take classy f
ood. my stomach just couldnt get it. i still prefer my mom's dinners. quite pathetic huh. but the food looks nice when it first comes to our table. the date on the photo a bit wrong la. something wrong with the camera settings, and i forgot to change. hehes. so this is the original FISH N CHIPS from fish n co everyone has been talking about since day o1. quite yummy la. i think i like the sour cream part on the fish. chips are nice too. overall, i think s okay la for 16.20. except i think is bit oily and greasy, so i couldnt finish the fish. hahas. but is so big la. the serving. phew. christle ate the salmon, and i dun like salmon.well, everyone around me is mugging for their common test. i should be doing the same. but i m so tired. so sians. and sick of some problems. hahas. i prefer taking a slow approach, one step at a time. go go, jia you! charis! hahas. after common test, u can complement yourself with a new wallet! hahas. i want a new wallet! mine is so dots... old, dirty, and out of date. hahas. and lately, im having alot of trouble with $$$. i hate it. so annoying. i m broke. so broke.
special order for susan. hahas.
At FISH N CO.
susan, christle, me. =) did sth to the photo of course.
their salt and pepper story. so lame. s.o.s
failed attempt in too-ing. hahas. act cool.
look in the camera. cheese.
Thursday, June 15
im cool
i cant i actually taught my mom how to surf the internet. okay, i think she is becoming addictive to it. she said is fun. FUN? that is not for an aunty who goes to market, takes care of house chores, looks after babies to say. perhaps the time has changed. aunties are no longer the aunties of da market. but women of da house. i mean, gender bias is not really an issue in this society. is there? wad the men can do, women can also do it. except on the part that men cant give birth to a child. thats so unfair. or else they will know how hard it is to be carrying an unborn child walking around like a balloon for more than ten months. then the men will learn to appreciate their moms/wives liao. for example, my dad. hahas. actually, im half amused by my mom that she is so fascinated by technology gadgets liaos. oh no.
now.. she is fidgeting my mp3. my pink mp3, the one that my dad bought from china at so real price. hahas. or so. i still hate investitures from school days. practise walking, sitting, smiling, raising your hand. come on. i m so dead. who cares about it on the day itself? put on a smile, your best behaviour, and it will win everything. and who wants to go my council investiture? tell me please. hahas.
see, my choice is always the best.
told you. told you. told you.
wadever i recommend is always the best. see, another person just praises on the show that i had watched. is superb nice. that s what princess joan had said. why is she called princess joan? because on one fateful saturday night, around ten plus, we were online.. and she was telling me how great it was that she could watch princess lulu. never die is it, i dun have scv at home one lei. still want to rub salt into my wounds. hahas. then later, i became princess charis. that s how the story began.. hahas.
but this photo. stupid godpa said he was acting cute. and he was not! he is shuai. my idol!!! truly adore him. den he said me being in my fantasy. going insane over these korean guys. hahas, joan was fighting with me. go back to your rain la. hahas.
today is a long long day. i had physics lesson at 8am. so had to crawl out of bed at 615am and got ready for school. wad many friends couldnt get it was why do i have to wake up so early when i live in seng kang. dunno.. habit le.. anyway, the physic teacher is not bad. finally i understand what he s talking about. i see the light in midst. dynamics. newton's three laws. wow. is a miracle. how an apple can make newton come up with three wonderful laws. and we had to study it.
i hate walking. we walked and walked. anyway, nothin to crap about the council stuff except the result for ex-co is out. surprisingly, the person i hope who could go in, didnt get in. sads. anyway, the president for 19th s amos. followed by vanessa the vice pres. the rest. i suppose i dun have to say la. if really want to know, come look for me. and after the whole thing. went kovan with the guys to take neoprint. i cant believe i actualli do that. because i cut my hair le. damn short. cant really get used to it. hahas. and. we took it. the five of us, me, jamie, janice, dinesh and sabree. hahas. and we donated one of it to the store. so tml... no lessons!!! yeah. but have to bring court shoes for the rehearsal. which is kindda lame.. looking forward to it.. heard there is going to be a test on teachers' names. why.. councillors have to know the spelling of teachers in SRJC. how many are there... hahas. goodnites ^-^
Monday, June 12
x-men 2: x-men united
today, i went to meet phebe for her da vinci book. cause princess joan wants to read it. and i had a shock of my life when phebe told me she was going to work. a waitress. in some prestigous hotel who gives only 6 bucks per hour. oh my. i was so overwhelmed. dunno. i thought its because the frens i know from young, suddenly they were like, all grown up working, earning a living. hmmm. and me. i feel i m such a tiny tweeny. i m still like a child. hahas.
all right. i shall work next year, after my alevels. and score excellent grades for it. i shant let history repeat itself again. aim high, fall high. that s what i ve been hearing all this while. feel quite bored le. hahas.
this evening, i m going to sit myself comfortably in my spacious living room. watching xmen 2 from channel 5. i just love the show. simply put: it rocks. as my mom is watching woman of the house. i was thinking ways of killing the homework that is piling like a heap.
Sunday, June 11
i survived. in one piece. PART 01 & 02
i m proud to announce that i m a SURVIVOR. i came back in one piece, unless u want to count the cuts and bruises on my body. hahas. overall, the camp was fun. and 19th student council rawks the house! still, my shoulders and back is aching. i may have to lie on the sofa for several days before i could sit properly. ow. i m trying to recall what i had done the past five horrendous days. first 2 days are wow, horrible, terrible, veggie-table. and i swear, this is going to be the longest entry i have ever written. anyway, its supposed to be my toilet bowl. so. this is just my undigested matter. hahas.
DAY 01
i didnt really sleep alot the night before. i woke up at six plus, and tried doing some bionomial, but ended giving up. cant focus. my mind was about the camp. i stoned in my living room the whole morning until seven plus, thinking whether i should go to the camp. and my mom was so tired that she was sleeping and ignored me until i demanded my breakfast from her around 745.. before i left my house, and my brother had already woken up. me, i was still thinking of a way to wriggle out of this messy thing. my mom and brother sang me the buddhist scripture, like im having my funeral then. arghs. why do i have such cranky family. poor me. i felt like hitting them la for making me feel so sad for leaving them. i reached college ten minutes before nine.
almost everyone is in the canteen with their luggage, all so excited and chattering. thereafter, the 19th sc went to put their bags in fusion house and gathered there for further instructions. we got the schedule for the day and we were divided into four groups. thank god, im in the same group as jamie. and i think mrs tan, she said its more exciting if she gives us the timetable per day. wow. marvellous. and so, the first part of that day is to clean the classroom blocks. the rationale behind this is to show our sc care and concern to the students. hahas, dun ask me how. lols. i was thinking. the classrooms will still be dirty when all of us came back from holidays. right? defeats all purposes. halfway through cleaning block A, i saw ethel, and the feeling is so great. i got to see my friend. support support. hahas. oh yeah, it was also then i know we are going to sleep in tents while we were in school. oh crap. i never slept once in a tent. no, i dun even noe how to pitch a tent. so horrible. yeah, i haven said about my amulet thing. we had an attire check before. and miss foo spotted my necklace and asked me wad i m wearing. i told her is my amulet and i have to wear it. hahas. she said maybe i should adjust the length cause it can be seen. so i did what she said. and guess wad. SNAP. the amulet detached from the string. is an omen. it marks the evil of the 5 days 4 nights camp. and i was correct, okay. the meals are yucky. all fried and spicy.
after cleaning the classrooms, we had a morning assembly training by the 18th sc. and i was selected to be an announcer next time. oh crap. i dunno why, i said the national pledge anyhow. and they still chose me. has. i m gg to have a hard time with keanu reeves in the next one and a half year. i shant say who s keanu reeves. s nickname for a somebody in college. but anyway. hahas. the 18th was so good to their juniors, they gave all of us a small personalised notebook. in the cover, it was written a small message. mine is "empty promises are worthless". at first i took it quite hard, cause there is hidden meaning, but later i think is true. unless they got psycho ability, how they know i m such person? thanks, to dunno who wrote that. it makes me much aware of myself.
we had to pitch our tents after it. due to miscommunication, the girls pitched the tents not in favour of mr b.tan's. we took up the fitness corner, and he wanted us to change. but not now, when there is still some light. we went for a quick dinner. damn fast. the food is horrid. but we have to swallow anyway. and later we went for a talk given by the 8th SC on project management. i was so tired. i was dozing during the whole thing. it was so boring. remember all of us hadnt bath. we were so tired. still we saw the 8th SC and 1st SC pple all grown up. there were 3 of them, and they told us of their passion for SC. they were all successful people now, two of them are teachers and the other is an trainer in hewlett packard. i was thinking coming into sr, is not entirely a failure option. unless we make ourselves fail, we shall succeed in life. anyway, the workshop starts from 730 to 1000. everyone thought we could bath and went to sleep after we gone to shift our tents. that was when i lost the peg for my tent. and it caused everyone in sc to look for the peg in the grass, groping for the stupid thing with their hands in the dark. i felt so bad. i caused trouble for everyone. but no.. mr b.tan and other teacher advisors gathered us at the pe room there. and we were made to do punishment. this is not because of the peg but in the morning, some forgot about their attire. so all for one, one for all. we hit the track. when we came back after a round, mr tey commented that we are damn disorganised, and made us run again with a time limit, i think is 2min30s. everyone sprinted. aniway we failed the timing. i remembered doing 4 separate rounds in the middle of the night. i was going to faint. in between, we did push ups and sits up on the track. it was a test of our edurance. damn stress. mr tey asked us questions on the full names of all HODs. we spelt many of them wrongly, and we got the punishment. tough. almost everyone was near to tears. this is the beginning of a monstrous training camp. the relax part was over, this is the real one. we finally got through it, and the teachers explained the reasoning to us. sadly, my mind was drifted to somewhere, except they want us to carry a notebook around. when we finally ended crazy thingy, it was near one. and frantically, we went to bath. oh ya, we also have to pack all our luggage in another bagpack, that belongs to the odac people. tell u the truth, its smelly and dirty.. and the reason we are going to repack, the teachers said we are changing our campsite. like real.. we all got fooled in the end.. lights out at 145am, but in reality none of us sleeps that night. there was 4 of us sharing, and it was bloody stuffy and hot inside. awaits for daylight.
DAY 02
we woke up at 0530. my sleepmates were janice, jamie, lishan and me. it wasnt meant to be that way, but anyway. i was so exhausted. cant take it le. try looking for the peg, but still couldnt find it. so i went to apologize to mr b.tan when he told me about the hike. we know we have a physical training, but we dunno we are going to do. that morning we had five loaves of bread, several cans of luncheon meat, sardines and baked beans. that was meant to be our breakfast and lunch. well my group rather ate plain bread and biscuits for breakfast. it meant we have to carry the cans and bread along with our luggage to dunno where. oh and i forgot. im in group 01. my group mates were xinyi, lishan, jamie, me, amos, alicia, gayne, jonathan, julian. so it turns out we were going macRitchie reservoir, oh we dont need the teachers to tell us. we can guess. mr tey, mr b.tan, miss foo and mrs tan went with us. carrying the heavy backpacks, sleeping bags, shoe bags, 8 tents, plus the food: cans and hike. physically exhausting. when we reached there at 830, because of our dilly-dally, mr tey reprimanded us and we did push up on the path. my palms are so swollen. and mr b.tan wanted us to rearrange our bags, and we had to take out all our stuff and repack. meaning our clothes were all scather among. all of us are sharing the same load. the boys are carrying much heavier bags than the girls. also because of this, my pe shirt and shorts went missing. everyone was carrying around 5 kg of bag. sads. anyway, mr b.tan took the lead. and we had to follow. the rest of teachers were carrying nothing. mind you, he walked very fast, and couldnt keep up initially. he was walking with a walking stick, and his bag was nothing. we had to walk in a single file, there were other people there. some guys were running half-naked. me began to get use to the heavy load, and could keep up with his pace. still, there were some dropping of stuff. after walking for about 3 km, it began to rain heavily. and we had to stop at the ranger station for shelter. we are not the only ones. we had our lunch and chatter there. with one can-opener, we opened the sardines and everything la. i prefer baked beans on my bread. anyway, my group left a half loaf of bread. everyone is starved. the rain never stops but everyone there is leaving, also going down the hill. i was thinking mayb the teachers decided to call off the hike of the bad weather. mind u, there is landslide. but no, instead of going down, we are going up. the rain hasnt stopped yet, there s still drizzle. suddenly we are cutting through the jungle, and mr b.tan is using a compass. oh lord. things r getting bit out of hand. the jungle floor s so wet and there are so many twigs, falling branches. worst still, there are thorns on them. we stopped halfway, when mr b.tan wan us to reflect why we want to be councillors. we were in the middle of nowhere in the jungle, sitting on top of our bags. luckily it rained, because it turned out to be our lunching area. i dun think i wan that. there were so many weird insects there. i felt so dead. i wanna drop dead then. i wanna get out of there badly. anyway, i thot it through about me being a councillor. we walked our way through and come to a sandy patch. this is the start. when mr b.tan suddenly want to play the casualty game. everyone was stunned, we had no idea what to do. until almost everyone became a casualty including me myself. now we know what we had to do. carry the casualties to a point where mr b.tan was. suddenly i felt he was psychotic. we dropped our bags on the ground. and began carrying. everyone was shouting instructions. and mr b.tan was counting how long it will take us. we carried this thing for so many times. mind you, some of the heavier people ended up being casualties. and we have to carry them. suddenly the gender doesnt matter anymore, we had to carry by hook or by crook. we were all pushed out of our comfort zones. i remembered carrying angel with jamie. she treated it like a laughing matter. brrz. i ended up being a casualty three times, and were carried by janice, angel and wee kiat. and i felt so sorry for them la. yet she could still laugh while we were carrying her. all of us are doing our best to see the teachers' maniac expectations. ya. and later, mr b.tan shouted everyone to do the hornet drill. all of us were to lie flat on the sandy ground, our hands protecting our heads. it was then i noticed how little i am. i was staring at the sand and stones in front of me. why am i doing all this? if i werent a councillor, i would be at home now, watching tv attending lectures with my friends. but because i m elected one now, so i m going through all this shit. seriously. i felt quite demoralised. council now is totally different from secondary school days. we are expected to do more than before, and to let the rest of students accept us. we have to be tough, strong to accept any critics from them. the rains fell even heavier. we were back on track to our way to our "campsite" again. we had to reach there by 345pm. i dunno how many km there are. i m so tired, cold from the rain, and feeling sick. i m not afraid to say i was crying in the rain, except my tears were mixed with the raindrops. i was dragging my feet to the destination which turned out to be bukit timah hill. i wanted to go home so badly. until the last few steps, i heard cheerings behind me. it cheered me up. they even sang college anthem. everyone is trying so hard, pushing their limits. i felt encouraged. not only me, so many of us are encountering this problem and fight this. 19th. we are the ones.
we finally reached the damn place. i felt a sense of achievement. though quite sad about the crying part.. at least is my sign of destressing. everyone boarded the bus and went back to school. we were so cold.. now we had to unpack. we all made it, i made it. this is a very nice feeling. and i thought i lost my torch in the meanwhile. that night, the T.As showed their concern to us by giving us to sleep in classrooms. we were so glad. this is like a reward to us. at least, im touched. but there are many cockroaches (xiao-qiang) in the girl's toilet near lt5. hahas. we turned in around 11 plus.
DAY 03
i woke up around 545pm, because im disturbed by their alarms. the funny fact was everyone slept like logs and couldnt be woke up by the alarms. there were three. we had workshops from 9 all the way to 12 in it-room 3. mr alan tan taught us on risk management, where we learnt about tau-pok. then the 18th exco spoke to us on induction. it was cold there. and we just took in everything we could. we were all looking toward afternoon, where we were going Changi MOE adventure centre. we reached there at one plus and divided into three groups. im in alpha, and my group members are jonathan, jarnaden, dinesh, cedric, wee kiat, sabree, gayne, xinyi, shiping, clara. we called ourselves alpha taupok. our facilitator was caihong (rainbow). she was a nice woman. we went to do our high aliments in one day. hahas. at least for rock climbing. my hands passed the red line. hahas. which is a great achievement for me. previously i couldnt have possibly done it. later, we tried wild woosey. i partnered with xingyi. well. we were so afraid. when we reached the top our legs are shaking. and our helmets were knocking against each other's. we lost balance. and i fell on the wire. who was belaying me? oh ya, wee kiat i think. has, its horrifying, my life depends on him. then later, i began belaying. cedric, jonathan, clara and shiping were the only ones who cross it. they are the strongest. continuing is the jumping from the pole. that s the easiest, only if whether u can grab the pole.
"on belay?" i asked.
"belay on." jaja replied. "squeeze check."
"check."
"climbing?"
"climb on."
i took a deep breath before i jumped. phew. it served the purpose. hehe. i grabed for almost a second. yipee. hahas. except jaja pulled too hard already, i m in agony. finally we went for abseiling and flying fox. that s the best part i thot. because there isnt difficulty. hoho. we went for dinner. well, we are very hungry. it was more than six hours after the last meal. alpha served the meal warmheartedly. there was a sudden fire drill. and we went off to do night activities. we were all blindfolded. and separated from our grp mates. we had to find them back with just "oinks". then we had to make a square with our blindfolds on. alpha did it the first. and we were so surprised. hahas. the thing is, night activity doesnt call it off a day. later we play another casualty rescue game. we were all blindfolded, and in the meantime, dinesh got "lost". as later he described that he was kidnapped into a blue van that drove him to dunno where. when we found out dinesh was lost. we all went around the vincinity shouting, "DINESH, where are you?" actually we all know he s not there, because dinesh wont play a joke on us. the teacher advisors were. they were hiding their laughters behind. argh. so annoying. until mr tey asked whether we want to go out and look for dinesh. even rainbow tricked us, we carried a stretcher and ran out calling for dinesh. when there was this car passed us. irritating. when we asked mr tey to come along with us. he was driving his car past us. so frustrating. argh. we walked briskly all the way to east coast park, when we thought we saw dinesh in his red shirt in the dark. but we called the wrong one, because he was moving further away from us. then shiping turned and saw him hiding behind a tree. we knew the T.As wanted us to do this. so we asked dinesh to lie on the stretcher while we lift him. it was hard because dinesh was heavy built.. we got eleven pple. but gayne and sabree they all had back problems, we dun wan them to get injured. so the remaining of us tried our best to carry dinesh. we pulled. rotate our position every now and then. took care of one another. it was hard. why couldnt they find someone lighter. hahas. anyway. we walked our way painstakingly, perspiring. one, two, one, two, xinyi was calling. when we reached the place. taupok team began fighting even harder. our goal is only that near. we were shouting now. it raises our morale. we made sure the CLCs heard us clearly. we may be a small group. but we are no nothing. the last few meters, we chiong there. and dropped dinesh. it was another sense of pride. we brought dinesh back safe and sound. alpha did it again. there in which. we had debrief with the T.A.s again. it was hell. they made us run here and there many times in a limited time of only 30s. tzewei and limin were not feeling good. we hadnt have our supper. the CLCs had already turned in. and left us. the debrief lasted for so long.. me and sabree. we were counting the number of planes taking off in the center. boy, it was so irritating. because the teachers were commenting us on our lack of urgency. and its hard to hear them break every now and then. again. that night, we only slept around 2 plus. few more hours to daybreak. whines.
DAY 04
we had our sea activities today. in the first place, i was thinking of not getting involved. i wanted to get out of it by saying i had the woman problem and couldnt play this game. but i dunno what gone into me. i did it eventually. and my kayaking partner is dinesh. hehes. mr ho even suan me before we even started kayaking. he so annoying. anyway. dinesh is strong as in he never fails to complete what he wants. so we peddle out into the sea. my hands like falling off anytime. the whole trip, he was calling me jamie. quite upset. has.. he said i fixed the name of jamie. dots dots. we were in the middle of the sea. and the instructor gave us a mission "impossible". he wanted the front person to echange seat with the back person. all of us did that. well until then, we had a small conflict. now that dinesh is in the front. the damn instructor wanted everyone in the front to stand up at least for a second. the waves were becoming more choppy. there were a few who backed out. that was disheartening. but all of us pulled through. behind, we were grabbing onto each others kayak tightly. making sure unity is there. so everyone ll not capsize. wee kiat's and dustin's capsized when we were switching the places. we pull through. we anchor. and our shoes were filled with sand. we went for lunch. and we continued with our low aliment activities, where we were gathering our equipments for our rafts. alpha lost three PVC poles in one of the four games. out of the three groups, we were the only ones with insufficient materials. that was damn disheartening. we tried bribing rainbow. but then.. hahas. we were so cold. the rain had started. we worked our rafts in the rain. out of the five girls, i had the poorest physical ab. i could only contribute small parts. im not sure about the ropes. it was quite devastating. my feelings arent great. with the rain and everything, i was damn pessimistic. and dinesh was transferred out of the team and in came evan. we worked nevertheless. we are the last, and done with incomplete materials. bravo went to fight the war first. but what i heard was that their raft dismantled the moment it touched the sea, and never made it the 25 meters. then later, group c went as well. they never really complete. only left us - alpha. compared to the others. ours looks more of a dragon boat, with one barrel in front and one behind. we never really utilise the equipment given. we used only 2 pvc poles, 3 tyres, 2 barrels and 9 ropes. i was going to pull onto the rope to tighten at the back of barrel. or rather i was supposed to be sitting at the back. it was time. the ropes of our raft loosen on the way to the sea. until shiping tied a dead knot to it. everyone board the raft. cedric was banging the barrel, and i was calling the rhythm. the rest were peddling. everyone was cheering on us at the shore even the teachers, vice principals and other groups. and though i wasnt wearing my specs. is so cool. everyone thinks its cute. they snap alot of our pictures. alpha is the best. i m so proud to be an alpha. neither did our raft dismantle in the sea. we travel more than 25 metre. we were so happy. we didnt expect it to happen. we were like oh my. we did it! we did it! everyone was cheering on us. we were the unexpected. everyone thot we couldnt do it, even us. but. hahas. and we were so yipee. dinesh felt so sad he couldnt be with us. but he helped us even though as we set sail. i hope we got pictures. we helped keep the stuff and later bath. getting ready for the campfire. i dunno why. i love campfires the best. 2 hours in the dark. singing. playing. laughing. performing. tobey got all the teachers to do the hokey pokey. hahas. some look very very very funny. especially mr p.tan. sshh.. p can mean alot of pple. he looks like a humpty dumpty. haha. so cute. the 19th went so crazy, so enthu. compared to the rest. our performance was the most anti-climax one haha.because we had no time to think of better one. and one of our ideas were used by one of groups. so we switched to this. i enjoyed it so much. i was used to being wet and dirty. hahas. it was the last night. after the campfire and debrief. good thing was we never got tenkan by the T.As. they were pleased with our overall performance and sent us to sleep. first time, we were dismissed earlier than the CLCs. so some of us went around disturbing them. honestly, 19th had lost their mind. everyone was so happy. we made it through. that was the last night. later everyone gathered and we done the craziest stuff. singing and dancing the friendship dance. i wasnt tired at all. doing the hokey pokey. all 32 of us under the moonlight. we made sure we rock the floor. i was overwhelmed. i was so happy i made it through this camp, and survived to tell u guys about my story that i am not longer a soft person and i had overcome my fears. that night, i slept well. and heard nothing of the airplanes taking off. i even dreamt..
DAY 05
it was time to leave. and everyone felt a bit sad. we had our fun. the rain came so suddenly. and we were in the canteen for our reflection time. as it was helpless from the sea. we faced the cold winds. and water splashing onto us. we hugged each other tightly. and singing the srjc cheers. told you 19th are a bunch of crazy people who work and play hard.
"brrr... is cold in here. there must be some sr spirit in the amtosphere. i say brr... olei olei. ice ice ice." uncompleted version. hahas. we suffered from brain freeze. like jonathan says. at last, the rain stopped and we proceed with our area cleaning. luckily we are not doing the toilet cleaning. or we ll die.. we had our last debrief follow-up for rafting with rainbow. and later is time to get ready for home. at last we are going back to civilisation. hahas. where there ll be enough food for us and everything. this camp taught me alot. and made a bunch of new friends. 19th is the best. or rather, tis s the best council camp i have ever been to. wah.. we are going to work even harder.
here i am. spend more than 4 hours vomitting my stuff. there are so much stuff i haven completed. homework. and i haven had my lunch!!! ahs~ gotta go grab something. logging off at 1527. jiayou! charis~
Saturday, June 10
test. tests. testss.
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Monday, June 5
the day before tomorrow
hohoho..
tomorrow is the day..
wahh..
loves my brother. until the end, i shall not fear. because i still have my little brother behind me. well, he bought me a water bottle. hahas. that s enough to have me put some good remarks of him in my BLOG. this is so sad.. it seems as though it s my last day in singapore. like i m kindda going overseas again. phew, alone. and my dad.. so annoying lo. translated into english, it ll be...
"how long are you going for camp?" he asked.
"5 days," i replied nonchalantly.
"oh..." he contined. "when you are there, dont cry and say you want to come back ah."
i rolled my eyes.
"i wun de. even if i wan come back, i will not call, i will come back by myself.." wah.. the incident ll forever stay fresh in their memories. its like it happened so many years ago le. aiyoh. -_-" yesterday, when my aunts came, and they asked the same thing. ll i cry? adults... they just like to dig out historical "artefacts" dun they?
huilin. good luck, mate. dun get bruises anyhow. amen to the mosquitoes, have mercy on me. wish i wun get stung by the jellyfish that lives under the changi sea (my brother said there are many creatures living in it). hope my canoe/kayak wun capsize. but somehow, i wish something can happen to me, like i fall sick or etc, then i could leave the camp. choy. i m just kidding... anyway. i hope i could pull through the 100+ hours of pure torture. hahas. i ll blog again next time.
Sunday, June 4
oh... i caused some damage to my brother's phone.. hees..
crap.. i spoilt his phone. not literally. i have no intention of doing so. who asks him go set his sim card to pin setting that when you switch on, you have to key in the pin no. but the problem is he doesnt know the pin no.. he is so argh.. hahas. anyway, like brother like sister. i also had tried this before, few years back, when im still using the "fashionable" 3200. end up i had to pay 20 over bucks to change a new sim card. well its for good sake, because the sim card is getting bit rusty and mouldy. has. but still, tml have to call the 1633 for PUK code. now i noe why is called PUK, it means puke. is damn frustrating and troublesome. and here i am blogging rightaway, when i can do something more constructive, like doing the all so tough tutorials? or try the evaluation of materials or continue my novel? wad s happening to me? pre-camp syndrome. i guess. i m so lost.. dunno what to expect from the camp. ah... scary.. anyway, feel quite sad today.. firstly is because my ex-leos mini steamboat gathering is cancelled last minute. secondly, i spent 24 dollars on something quite unnecessary.. thirdly, i spoilt my brother's phone. AND finally, i havent gotten any work done... argh... frustrations unleashed.
no... dots...
yes, i dun wanna go!!! to the 5 days 4 nights camp in school and changi moe adventure centre. ahs... its pure toture, why do we have to use up the whole week? thats so weird... i can make full use of the week instead of making myself feverish and inaudible. hahas... there are so many things i m going to miss, man. think again, this is the first time i m going on myself again since the tour to thailand with my fellow leos people for 4 nights, and the sec 3 adventure camp. wah... i m going to miss so many things... miss, i think this word has at least 2 meanings.
miss as in - desire somebody or something's presence
- fail to be in time for something
things i m going to miss terribly while i m in camp.
miss...
-] my bed
-] my mama's nagging and her tea supper time
-] my dad's longwinded story of life
-] quarreling with my brother
-] watching stained glass!!! (oh man, four whole episodes... who knows how fast the story is going to spin... so suay)
-] green forest, my home (its new, but think its nice, can survive w/o it)
-] my laptop
-] lectures and tutorials (and have to make up during the week 3)
hais, shuldnt have signed up for council in the first place hahas..
020605, i went NLB to do PW.. hais.. we spent around two to three hours researching on books related to chinese policy. and i really have to call SOS.. because i dunno what i m doing there.. walk blindly, i think. hope i can be more friendly towards.. .... but is quite impossible. dunno why also.. perhaps s just me.. i m always like that.. never mind, we have another three to four months to get to know each other better.
Friday, June 2
is it too early to think about these?
frankly i dont how to begin this particular entry.. i m feeling lost and helpless. after living for sixteen years and who knows how many days in this bizzare world, suddenly i feel i dont know what i m doing.. everyone exists for a reason. some survive for love, others live to pursue their dreams, but very few are the ignorant, people who take every day for granted, and have no idea where they are going in life.
i guess i belong to one of the fews.
perhaps i've been watching too many dramas lately, that i begin to wonder. because if you go and read the profiles of the actors and actresses, you can see that many of them are actually university graduates, some even from the Ivy leagues. and yet, they chose an acting career. see, this world is becoming more and more materialistic, and conscious of qualifications one has. suddenly i realise the importance of admitting university in singapore, a place where people see education standard over experience. but then again, having some money wont harm, but in fact, it may bring you to greater heights...
then wad about me? miss charis chia hui lin
What do i exactly want in my life?
you cant expect me to...
1) find a boyfriend at 17, get married, and be a Desperate Housewife? [no way... my looks are too ordinary, plump, and i'm poor. no one wants me. hahs. besides, my mom went to a fortune teller before that if i marry before the age of 30, i sure ll have a divorce. so...] marriage? siao..
2) give up my JC curriculum, and switch to a poly life? hahaha. the first thing that come to my mind when i received my prelim results around october last year, no, i m not going to a poly. because my wardrobe has limited choices, my clothes still look kind of kiddish. it's still under renovation... the other reason i chose not to go is, i dont know what to study in a polytechnic. they offered so many courses. what if the course i choose end up i dont like it at all. what shall i do then? spend another couple of years mugging? hahas..
3) go abroad study, somewhere like australia, etc... i really like that. if given a chance, i would really go overseas and experience that type of school life. studying in singapore is like walking in the streets of NEW YORK CITY. everyone is moving so fast that you have hard time keeping up with them, this is also because they know what they want in their life. be a successful lawyer, noble doctor, etc... but you think my dad prints cash? everytime sees him come home after a whole day of driving, the money he earns.. is hard-earned lo... how can anyhow spend?
this is so unjust. why is it that in this society, a person with very little education, cant they find a decent job? and they actually have to slog their life doing?
anyway its quite long, i doubt anyone will read it.. so no offence, if you read something, and you dont feel quite right about it.. is just me, hl milk venting her frustration again...