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10 reasons why u should come for J1 bash

so.. i ve come up with 10 reasons why u should attend.. so please join.. friday is the last time u can purchase the tickets. and we 19th sc, including myself really hope to see as many people atteding and not just a pathetic number of 30 plus ppl.. so please. do participate. its rly for everyone. though the price is rather s t e e p, and i thot so too.. but still.. please support us. u can still buy tix on fri, time is right after ur alvl MT papers of course. and SLC peeps will be in the concourse setting up a booth. so please.

TOP 10 REASONS

1. the first ever J1 bash organized by 19th SC, and we are trying v v v hard to make it fun and exciting
2. supposedly is to celebrate J1s promoting to the next level, but also to take a break after a week of holiday lessons
3. to gather with your class people again to interact
4. even though price is fixed at 8 bucks, mrs kok has offered to subsidise 2 bucks out of her own pocket for every individual attending..
5. J1 bash publicity is done by the public relations committee, which currently im in. if only a mere 30 people participate, it meant my committee PR had done a poor job advertising.. which was not, b'cos we are going back to college on THURS (must highlight LOL) to stick all posters.
6. we had tried out best to make it fun and exciting. activities though were a little bland. the main idea of bash is still to interact. nevertheless, the programme will be dance, band performance, tea catering, games, lucky draw, etc..
7. mrs. kok is leaving in december. so this J1 bash is considered her final event with us. plus she is the guest of honour of the event. if dun wanna support us, sc, u shuld rly give face for mrs kok..
8. dance will be a couple dance, since there were quite a few attached in my class. u shuld really come, so to dance with ur "partners"
9. moi is inside sc, who come up with this fastantic idea. shuldnt you all show some support? and the event is on friday, means next day no school. after the bash, we can still go kboxing. shuld u all hmms.
10. lastly, and im rly coming to the end.. IM DESPERATE! raising the number of people signing up from 30 to 200 is no joke!?! and we are given the shortest time.. plus.. i rly hope u all to have fun.

on account of everything, shouldnt u consider again?? never mind u got until friday, 3 november to think about it.. please participate actively. :))

yalos.


objective of today's entry:
- comment on the day
- j1 bash

so it was a partially cloudy morning. i woke up at 640am todae for school, sc there was no assembly as it was holidays. i woke an hour later. carrying a laptop, two presents plus a boRed game.. walked past the provision shop. and there it was another issue of princess hours. spend two dollars rightaway. and just realized i had only 2.50 bucks for lunch. so wadever.. i m happy. =) arrived school a few minutes to 8am. and i also came up with a conclusion. prayers dun always work. dun get wad u mean, nvm.. u aint supposed to noe a thing.. so OP time. sm didnt show up at all. dunno wad happened to her.. either she had no idea we had a session today or she was sick again.. so we had to skip her part totally when come our turn..

after everything was done. showed felicia's video to everyone. i just couldnt help crying.. i mean, who ll feel happy when people are leaving.. and especially i m the one who did the video.. i just couldnt take it. i guess.. hais.. anw.. with my 250, and early dismissal. we then went kovan's hawker center for lunch. order a 190 nasi lemak set meal. and borrowed 1 gold coin from joan. lOl. i lead a pathetic life. just b'cos i forgot to take the extra 2 bucks frm the coffee table.. afterwards went bowling. the guys went bowl la. while the girls watched.. the first game was own by jeremy (polomi), and the second was by wenhui (tyco tcyo one - still he is my no.1 fan) laugh out loud. fines. initially i wanted to put pictures.. but so ma fan.. i screwed it up again.. so i shall put later.. get on to the next part..

omg..

i think i am screwed.. i cant believe i heard angeline say that.. that means other hundreds of people may have also watched the video, including him maybe.. the word must have spreaded to him le.. WAHS.. how am i gg to face the people in school now.. especially him.. gosh.. i feel like burying myself in the sand.. but no sand at my hse lei. wah sai~ so murder myself lahs..
i think this is becoming true.. i keep thinking of wanting to see ... but the person just never appear.. is it an infatuation? like what jamie said? hahas.. im felt ridiculous at times.. she then told me wad i should have already expected. so i was neither shocked nor surprised. just "hoh, is it? ..." deep down inside, i just know it could never have been true..

it was just an infatuation.. i dun even noe the meaning, until phebe told me.. perhaps when she told me.. or i should just check out dictionary.com

infatuation
n 1: foolish and usually extravagant passion or love or admiration 2: temporary love of an adolescent [syn: puppy love, calf love, crush] 3: an object of extravagant short-lived passion
WordNet ® 2.0, © 2003 Princeton University

princeton university. so the results should be quite reliable la.. but hoh.. wad phebe told me was like somebody because of his looks, the surface stuff la. over phebe who is currently a student TJC, and the definition from princeton uni, i chose to believe princeton professors. lol.. something else to add, den if that s the case, yes, i think this thing is only temporary. it will fade away in due time. WAHAHA.. yipee. i shant be bothered by it liaos..

two more days to big dae. lol. so happy ;) ahhs .. but hoh.. i cant go out .. wad s the use of stayin at hme on ur big dae? stupid alvl chinese. either u come early or u come late. why must u treat me this way.. then again, i alr declared long ago that i hate M.o.D.. in case of some spyware, i changed the lettering.. so figure out yourself. aja fighting to peeps takin chinese and OP. ganbate. i must rly get an A for chinese sia. if not prepare some rope for me la.. hais.. gtg. on another bright side, i completed my I&R with the help of sherry and encouragement from phebe. grinx. dun wry sherry, i didnt copy urs. except mayb some nice phrases la.. i shall make this confession. im so sry.. ur english really tempted me. but i sweared its is only less than 1% that i copied!

hehes. jonathan, i did ur quiz. cos i dun wanna start I&R..

Bored? ((Over 100 questions))
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? :::	charis
Birthplace :::	singapore
Age :::	16 going on 17
Age you act :::	10
Current location :::	at home, in front of my laptop
Eye color :::	black
Hair color :::	black with some strands of white
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :::	right
Zodiac sign? :::	scorpio
Height? :::	163 cm
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality :::	singaporean
Your hair :::	neck length
Your fears :::	feeling unwanted...
Your perfect room :::	must have a queen sized bed, luxurious kind of look. and all the necessary furniture
What you practically do in a day :::	eat, sleep, blink my eyes
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse :::	what? uh-uh.. hais...
Phrases you overuse :::	what is the problem with you?
Your first thought when you wake up :::	crap.. CL alvl comin.. so is OP
Your greatest accomplishment :::	scoring not bad for O'lvl
Something you want to do :::	become a teacher, volunteer in 3rd world country
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke :::	pepsi
McDonald's or Burger Kings :::	mcDonald
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :::	britney spears
Chocolate or vanilla :::	chocolate as solid food
Adidas or Nike :::	adidas
Black or white :::	black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :::	bills
Burgers or hot dogs :::	hot dogs
Egypt or France :::	egypt
Rock or rap :::	rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke :::	nahs. i hate people who smoke
Cuss :::	yah, sometimes.. it becomes bad when i get really pissed..
Sing well :::	not bad la. i think quite highly of my singing skills. LOL
Sing in the shower :::	yeps. sometimes. i ll sing the most hito songs. grinx
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :::	yay.. when trying to debate abt something..
Believe in yourself :::	fairly ok bah.. but there ll be times when i lose faith and hope in myself too..
Like taking these longass surveys? :::	ok la.. i didnt really want to get started with I&R..
Play an instrument :::	yups. french horn, recorder. but i rly wanna learn how to play guitar.
Want to go to college? :::	yesh! either SMU or NUS
Want to get married? :::	ya, if not? if read above, i didnt rly wanna to grow old alone.. i hate loneliness..
Want to have children? :::	yups.. three. think mentioned in other surveys le..
Think you're a health freak? :::	nope. more like being a junk food freak. hahas
Get along with your parents :::	not bad. sometimes arguements improves family relationships better. add spice to it.
Get along with your siblings? :::	i only have one. fairly ok la.
Think you're popular :::	nahs. i doubt so.
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state :::	yesh. a few weeks ago..
Drank alchohal :::	no.. i dun drink.
Smoke :::	i dun smoke. starting to get pissed off le.. hate ppl who smoke liao
Get high :::	yay. like real.. i m not rly that high person..
Done any drugs :::	nopes. unless u count panadol. haha
Eaten an entire box of oreos :::	ehs, i prefer chipmore. hahas. me and meiling finished the whole packet. yummy
Been on stage :::	yup. umpteen times, mostly doing stupid stuff. grinx
Gone skinny dipping :::	nopes. i ll never have the courage to do that at all..
Been dumped :::	nil
Dyed your hair :::	i wish i can, but my mom.. hais..
Stolen anything :::	no. i m a true and honest person. if i rly like that thing, i ll save and scrimp for it. or another way, is to cheat my mom into buyin. nahs, just borrow cash frm her la..
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest :::	ziwei and xinyi
Loudest :::	is it me? hahas.
Most shy :::	ming chao
Blondest :::	some girl i noe in secondary school.. ssh.. hahas..
Smartest :::	jacqueline sim (see, i praise you lei..)
Kindest :::	hmmms, i think everyone whom i noe is kind-hearted one loh.. i dun befriend mean frenx.
Best personality :::	phebe bay. loL.
Most talented :::	jeremy le la.. or andy?
Best singer :::	okok.. its me ah.. loL. eh, i think is shiyong.. the singing freak. jk
Most ghetto :::	sm.
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :::	same person. i just think she can be nominated as the golden horse award.
Pain in the ass :::	hmmms. some person.
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):::	nahs..
Funniest :::	wenhui and shiyong.. cold jokes.
Best person for advice :::	ehs. stella?
Dependable :::	meiling, jamie
Trustworthy :::	joan, sherry
Druggie :::	i can swear no one takes drugs..
Most likely to end up in jail :::	just for jokes, wenhui? hahas.
Person you've known the longest :::	sherry le bah. den angeline..
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream :::	quite long.. so cut it short, i rmb the dream to be a grp of jc frens eating lunch in my secondary school canteen.. somemore eating western food.. to be continued..
Last nightmare :::	rmb someone commiting a murder
Car ride :::	in my dad's taxi for dinner..
Last time you cried :::	a few weeks back
Last movie seen :::	sinking of japan.
Last movie rented :::	49 days
Last book read :::	some sandra brown book think title is demon rumm..
Last word said :::	cant rmb..
Last curse word said :::	cant rmb..
Last time you laugh :::	at jamie.
Last phone call :::	with jamie
Last CD played :::	goong ost
Last song you listened to :::	wad i like about you by lillix
Last annoyance :::	at my brother.
Last IM :::	with andy
Last weird encounter :::	hmms. good one. cant rmb..
Last person you hugged :::	felicia
Last person you yelled at :::	think is yuanwei..
Last time you wore a skirt :::	just, part of sch uniform
Last time you've been evil :::	just..
Sarcastic? :::	just..
Last time you fought with your parents :::	we argue. not fought. lol. wad age le..
Last time you wished upon a star :::	i lived four storey. cant view stars.. even thou i wan to..
Played Truth or Dare :::	quite awhile le..
Spent quality time alone :::	nahs.
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM :::	wad is AIM?
Do you feel lonely :::	quite, sometimes..
Ever TP'd someone's house :::	nopes. my cousin's hse?
How about egging someone's house :::	no.
Do you not like dislike not like me? :::	who are u?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :::	not bad. their songs.
Yo Momma :::	shake it shake it
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :::	YESH. especially when there is SC work.. we cant do anything..
What do you think of George Bush? :::	rubbish..
Any secret fetishes? :::	lie my head on his shoulder. is it considered one?
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :::	nopes.
How many languages do you speak? :::	three. english, mandarin, some cantonese
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :::	nopes. its ok.. l8r still have to do I&R lei..
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) :::	yes.
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wenhui's quiz..

Tag five people at their tagboard after doing.
1. Will you tell your crush that you like him or her?
Ans: I will after awhile.

2. If your crush like somebody else, what will you do?
Ans: wad can I do? Give up and wish them all the best loh.

3. You have accidently bumped into your crush and his or her friends. He or she invited you to join them. what exactly would you tell him or her?
Ans: eh.. get out of there fast. Unless I know his friends.

4. Prom is just around the corner. Your crush wants you to be his/her date. Now, do you think he/she likes you?
Ans: hmmm. There is a high possibility… lol.

5. What will you do if your crush said "I love you" to you?
Ans: choked my food

6. Who is your crush?
Ans: no crush at the moment lei. Say wad?

7. Do you think your crush like you too?
Ans: dunno

8. Why do you like your crush?
Ans: if I have one, I think I will like his personality.

9. Do you share any interests with your crush?
Ans: it has to be. We must at least have a common topic.

10. Will you ever going to marry your crush?
Ans: perhaps?

NOW, A WORD FOR A WORD.
1. Having feelings for myself
Ans: wad you mean? Love yourself? Sure.

2. Loving someone is tiring.
Ans: agree.

3. Breaking up is freedom
Ans: dun think so.

4. Going on a date is a waste money
Ans: going out with friends also spending money wad. So how?

5. Long walk on the beach is boring.
Ans: nopes. It’s r o m a n t i c, u dummy.

6. Saying "I love you" is lame
ans: action speaks louder than word. I mean the ways of being understanding and caring.

7. Making out is so gross
ans: after marriage…

8. Prom sucks
ans: yeps… boring affair..

9. Your boyfriend/girlfriend is someone
ans: dun get the question

AND THE QUESTIONS.
1. Knowing the painful truth or hearing the beautiful lie?
truth.

2. Pretty but mean or ugly but nice?
ugly but nice. I think im one of them…

3. Group date or One-on-one date?
one-on-one

4. Dating someone or staying alone?(Imagine your boyfriend/girlfriend is away for a few years)
wait for him!!

5. Great body or great mind?
great mind.

6. It's Saturday; Going out with your bf/gf or your friends?
depends who ask me out loh.

7. Follow your heart or your mind?
heart first then mind

8. You did a lot of bad things in the past; Confess or hide?
confess abathen

9. Your perfect date; Romantic dinner at an exclusive restaurant or a fun night at the amusement park?
amusement park!!! But then again, Singapore only has one.. I prefer dreamworld in gold coast…

10. The way you say good bye after you went on a date.
no experience. So no idea… ciaoz? Hahas

sherry's quiz: must be my retribution lol

1. how old do you wish you were?
21? so can watch R-21 movies. hahas.. just kiddin la.. i wish i can be 18.. best part of life. i guess.

2.Where you when 9/11 happened?
at home. watching the headlines from tv.. and thinkin it was singapore's world trade center which got attacked by terrorists, and wondering why i couldnt hear the explosions in seng kang. (i swear its true.. i wasnt kidding.. that s how ignorant i am then..)

3. what do you do when vending machines steal your money?
get pissed off, and started cursing about cheating my money.. probably like sherry, give the machine a kick. and then go find the person-in-charge of the vending machine to get a refund.

4. do you consider yourself kind?
ok la.. try my best not to hurt the other party.

5. if you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
on my right chest

6. if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
korean!

7. do you know your neighbours?
eh.. i noe who are they.. but hardly talk at all. except greet one another good mornings?

8. what do you consider a vacation?
relaxing, an escapade from stress

9. do you follow your horoscope?
I just see if it’s accurate.. never really follow like what to wear/avoid

10. would you move for the person you love?
Depends la..

11. are you touchy feely?
Yups.

12. do you believe that opposites attract?
Yes. If not, how people fall in love and get married?

14. favourite tv channel?
Discovery channel!

15. favourite place to go on weekends?
HOME
16. showers or baths?
Showers

17. do you paint your nails?
Nil. Extra expenditure

18. do you trust people easily?
Yes. Surprise huh?

20. do you want kids?
Yes, three. Two sons one daughter

21. do you keep a handwritten journal?
Nopes. I keep a blog.

22. where would you rather be now?
Someplace to hole up…

23. who makes you warm and fuzzy?
My mommy. Or yah, grizzly bear too.

24. heavy or light sleeper?
heavy

27. who can you relate to?
Almost anyone. I just keep talking loh. But mostly, my mommy.

28. how do you feel about interracial couples?
Cool. Think about their children they will have. Babies will look so cute… mix-blood lei. I dun think I will mind inter-racial marriage… but must depend. cause I wun change my religion because of the marriage, so maybe u will get an idea whom I dun really wan to marry…

29. have you been burned by love?
Nopes.

30. What's your pick-up line?
If my mom, I will say “yea”
If my friends, I will say “helloz”

31. what's your ringtone?
Doreamon opening song. But then, I always turn it to silent mode la. Not into ringtones.

32. what were you doing at midnight last night?having a date with sand man

33. what did the last text on your mobile say?
Ok, why councilor so mafan? But I think I may have OGL meeting on these days

34. whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine

35. what colour shirt are you wearing?
White

36. most recent movie you watched?
Sinking of japan. Which ends up becoming a comedy because of shiyong…

^^37. name three things you have on at all times.
Glasses, clothing, and ssshh…

38. what colour are your bedsheets?
Tom and jerry..

39. how much cash do you have right now?
Leave only 10 plus bucks le…

40. what's your favourite part of the chicken?
Chicken wings ^^ yummy

41. what's your favourite town/city?
gold coast

42. i can't wait till:
going overseas for further studies~ I love seasonal countries. Or rather, I wanna go Australia study in ten years time, after I work le so I can pay for my own.

43. what did you have for dinner last night?
Instant noodles

44. how tall are you barefoot?
163cm

45. do you own a gun?
I dun wanna to…

46. what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Warm milk.

47. where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
Still in Singapore. I guess. But say 20 to 30 years later, I will beat new Zealand, because of migration. And my dad will have his dream come true, opening a ranch or rather a farm there. And I will breathe in all the fresh air I get from the mountain height. Then again, it’s both my and my dad’s dream. So aja fighting!

48. last thing you ate?slices of orange before dinner…

49. what songs do you sing in the shower?
Depends. The most recent one is the tian tian ye ye by FIR. The song is damn nice!

50. last thing that made you laugh?
Cant rmb…

51. worst injury you ever had?
Back of my head hit with a screw driver? Because I fought with my brother again. LOl.. it happened many years ago le.. dunno if there is a scar behind but doubt so.. cause my mom had applied xi gua shuang that night.. and it stops bleeding virtually.. of course, my brother had to pay for it la… and me? I cried that night… hahas…

52. does someone have a crush on you?
Nahs… doesn’t, can’t, shan’t and never be…

54. what song do you want played at your funeral?
Canon in D (rock version)? LOl.. Im kidding la, for my JC galfrenz, they know when will I play that song la.. for my funeral, I think I may play amazing grace though I am no Christian, but I love that song.

55: did you realised that there's no question no. 13?
No one cares la.. this is such a long quiz… boo *-*

big dae coming! yippee!

im in an exceptionally good mood today.. partly because of the good results i received today.. overall, i got 66. but i swear im going to work even harder for the upcoming common test. AJA! shant talk too much today, cause busy chatting with my ka-kees now.. but then, to hear news of friends retained or leave school, i felt quite sad.. if things were to go back, im sure they will work even harder to get promoted.. i will miss you all.. really..

LDN

wad exactly is wrong with me? havent i made the promise to get over? yet, im doing it again... ARGHs.. just couldnt stand myself. i hate myself.. why do i have to be so conscious over it?!? is not as though its a big deal.. i wanna CHANGE! but i cant.. there seems to be an invisible force behind controlling me and my thoughts.. right now, im doing things that i dun wanna do.. and no one is stopping me.. im so tired.. so tired.. help me please.. maybe you are right when you said scorpions are self-centered people.. but i dun want to be one of them.. maybe you are right.. perhaps i just like you too much.. thats why it stirred my jealousy.. then again.. im not the kind of person you think i am.. anyway.. i really ll change for the better. and hope you dun mind my childishness.. sick of school..

yesterday, forced to attend the FGD, aka focus group discussion.. and have to forgo a chance of watching deathnote with fairy he and weini.. very very disappointed.. and obviously buay song.. always like to give short notices one.. and i am one of those who really loathes short notices.. but anyway.. FGD is _____. fill in the blank yourself.. luckily for me, meiling, tina, jungui, jiaqing and jeremy attended too.. so i didnt feel alone.. out of all, jiaqing spoke the most.. saying to ban all carbonated drinks in school. zzz.. then the part on "the food sold in canteen is healthy" received the most comments from us. LOL. someone mentioned that she found a worm in her food and yet the stall vendor said the food is cooked, she can still eat. OMG.. that is pretty ridiculous. and another one said the fish and chips sold is over priced.. because the fish is so small and yet contains 70% of flour. laugh out loud. that really stirs alot of commotion. that means 30 percent of real meat inside onli. has. anyways.. that is the highlight of the discussion i guess..

- going crazy

exams free.

still enjoying my time. or should i be doing that? if im not wrong, next next fri will be alvl's chinese.. i should have started preparing.. ***reflection***
i spent this whole morning watching full house. rerun. that s for someone like me, who have nothing to do at home, and wishing to just s l a c k whole day. for me, i prefer to staying indoors all day. like this, i wont spend much money too. well. its true. then again, weekend is for peeps to recharge themselves before another week of hectic timetable.
went out for lunch with sherry yesterday. end up eating long john silver. so sad. i thot we could eat better ones. its always like this.. fatbird to accomodate me, ll choose to eat long john, so do sherry. hahas. i really need an increase in my allowance sia.. i doubt its impossible anyway, after since the 20 bucks increase just a few months ago. im so disappointed.
at nine pm, channel u s showing my home tutor, not sure if its spelt this way. but got kwon sang-woo in it. my FAV. actor. so must stick myself to the tv set later. right now, still on my novel. i keep thinking and thinking.. what else should go on? my passion from the beginning seems to have disappeared. hais. now i noe why authors are not that easy to be.. they really got to go through alot..

palette's video

so this is the full version of video that we intend to show the tennis people on the 11 oct 2006. but due to time constraint.. we didnt.. quite a pity. but anyway, the person behind this is dustin. he made this video. and its very very nice. chily. hope you enjoy. ciaos..

weedy wednesday

phew.. so i guessed i pass.

PROMOS results:
GP - S (expected la..)
CL - B
Physics - D
Chemistry - E
Economics - B
Math - B

if compared to mid-year, i think i have deproved.. hais.. but i sincerely pray that all of us will get promoted to 2S13.. it will be quite meaningless if one or two is gone.. i mean touch wood la.. sians.. dying..

alert

HOW MUCH I HATE FREE-LOADERS IS UNIMAGINABLE!!!
arghs..

my promos results are so dead.. sobs

hais.. hais.. hais.. decided to change my blogskin after since reviews of subjects. actually im kinda of kidding, i changed because i thought i need a new skin.. quite bored le. and this skin kinda of rox.. back on track.. i knew i m not going to do well for my promos. though i wish i had.. but anyways.. the doomday is actually tml. when we are really gg to collect all the papers.. i can predict a big boo boo liaos.. wadever.. i shall post tml abt the results. i really think i need to bring a rope tml, like what i told yuanwei this morning.. he was telling me to bring heart attack pills tml.. den i said bring rope to hang myself.. but he replied, jump off building even faster. fine fine. i do my own way. LOL. of course i wun do such stupid things la. except be sad, sad and sad.

ooo. today after school went hougang mall with meiling and stella. bought birthday gift for a friend liao. which is like so great.. honestly, i haven bought birthday presents for a long long long time. like a year and a half? as usual, i have no idea what to buy la.. so i bought something practical. anyway its not cheap just for that lo.. hrmm.. den the threesome went pepperlunch for lunch at hougang mall. poor things. i mean we, all srjcians seem to only able to venture neighbourhood shopping malls. hardly towns. cos we saw jialing's company and somebody else.. oh ya, so are our school key personnels. guess who we saw after lunch? our vice principals, miss tan and mr looi. laugh out loud sia. are they having lunch at pepperlunch too? stella said she saw them entering a laundry shop. ehhs. wad they doing ah? ssh..

so dead so dead. tml dismissal will be at 530pm. because of OP rehearsal. crap.. and tml we are collecting exam scripts. i think i can promote. but wun do well at all. SOBS! plus my chinese, my favourite subject is weakening. wad de.. hais.. i just got an instinct that im gg to do badly for alevel's chinese, and i would have to retake it next year. OMG. I DUN WAN TO REPEAT HISTORY AGAIN! oh by the way, my heartbeat is going faster than usual lately.. is it because of the haze? or.. i really cant breathe in singapore liaos.. PSI more than 100!?!

16 oct

Today was my dad's and brother's birthday. coincidentally they both share the same birthday, which was unintentional. according to my mom. HAHA. i bought a cake specially for them. its small la. but how long have we celebrated birthdays with a cake? hardly la. its like almost 10 years without a birthday cake for me. my family just doesnt seem to follow this trend. i guess my biggest wish is to see a cake on my birthday. =D i think baking it yourself means even more. but a cooking idiot like me could never attain it. i used to not switch on the oven to bake the muffians during home econs practical. how smart can i be?

time flies really fast. its mid october now. phew. sitting for chinese alvl in three weeks time. i think my chinese promos really hanging in mid air la. !_! sobs sobs.. gg to get back physics paper tml. i doubt i will pass. a devastating blow. LOL. tis phrase is always so familiar to me. hilary duff's friend had this speech in cinderella's story. LOL. rox.. gg off liaos. dunno wad to do for the nite liao. except cut cake? but seems an impossible task to achieve. because my dad and my brother are in some sort of row. a quarrel on their birthday? how ridiculous.. they got the same weird temper though..

friends.

Friend

walking home one afternoon,
after all boring lessons.
darkness suddenly fall upon me,
and i discovered i was all alone.

i was so afraid,
for i cant see a thing in pitch black.
i broke down,
but no one was there to hear me.

it was never the first time,
i was used to it.
tears and joys we used to share,
are they going to simply vanish?

my friend,
i was never angry.
nor was i surprised.
for it all seemed so natural,
to be part of the life cycle.

i'm genuinely happy for you,
for you are my dearest friend.
but dont treat me invisible when you see me.
i really feel terrible.

will we ever be the same?
i've no idea.
i've given my blessings.
perhaps its time for me to depart..

i felt so foolish this time, but
its the first time i truly encountered such,
don't feel sorry for me,
don't feel guilty b'cos me.

i just need time to digest.
so please forgive me, my friend.
and treat me the way you used to.
we are friends forever.

but if things ever gone wrong,
please please please remember.
i'll always be there for you.
you can count on me, my dearest friend.
this is my promise i made to you.

- confessions of a broken teen

bbq night

tis s the video i'd completed on thursday. and im genuinely touched by my masterpiece.. sobs. to begin with, im thankful that im in S13. still remebered the first time there.. met the peeps there.. they were all so foreign to me.. and i didnt really want to speak and interact then, due to the posting results.. i felt so sad.. but at the same time, face the reality la.. now? i feel that s13 peeps are a bunch of nice people. though cranky and very very noisy at the same time.. plus there is a deep lovey ambience in the air.. romance..

well, it was bbq yesterdae.. to start, i didnt really want to go.. cos feel quite left out.. but anyways, i still went.. because i paid five bucks. things to complain.. because jiaqing and i alighted the wrong bus stop. we were forced to walk like dunno 40 over bbq pits, carrying 3 bottles of 1.5 litres drinks, one packet of 2.5kg ice and sausages.. luckily i called for the rescue team, aka stella, elwin and andy. but they a bit slow la.. i just rented the bike and they arrived.. btw jiaqing didnt noe how to cycle. so im the one cycling with the food and everything. its really damn far la to BBQ pit 16 area c. haiyo turtle, why book a far one..

so anyway the food was edible. and no one cares about hygiene.. just eat eat eat. the chicken wings were nice. thanks joan for marinating.. and then the heart attack game. brrz. its challenging. ended up all of us playing cheats. we were helping one another to win. geez. tis the first time i played like this. and miss tan came. with a oreo cheesecake somemore. i really adore miss tan. my favourite econs teacher. i think she makes the subject interesting, injects life into subject. simply put, we all love miss tan. den heard a sad news from jiaqing just now, miss tan is leaving soon. OMG.. sobs.. why.. hais. she is the finest teacher i ever seen in jc so far. which is why i aim to be a teacher next time. i want to teach and be my students' friend as well. miss tan is my role model. even though i dun have her figure la. LOL.. =P

so we left ard 10 plus.. and im so worried abt missing the last bus. den we encountered a weird woman at the bus stop near parkway. for more info, read old tortoise's blog. he had described all of us as timid peeps, while he was the hero. LOl. nice sia, wenhui. say us until like that. but anyway reached home near 12am.. another day died off.

palette 2006

cca exchange. overall is fun. i think i m falling in love with tennis. its an interesting game, but still is demanding la.. have to run here and there. still prefer badminton though. hahas. some of the time, i ended up using bad techniques aka jumping up to hit the ball, and then missed it instead.. so diu lian la.. zzz..
shall keep it short and simple. because its getting late. and while the rest of my classmates are not going to school tml. i have to be present. for wad? for the j2 G-DAE. hais. im so ill-fated.. so wad? im the one who chose this path. so stick to it la. complain complain.
hahas. i found something else to do after promos le. so grinx. is meant to be a secret. shall noe when is done. LOL. anyway, i like doing it too. it stimulates my braincells la.. make me more creative. LOL. getting thick skinned le. okies. ciaos.. update tml..

BBQ fiesta.

i should have accepted the five dollars from my dad right? why am i so stupid?? hais...
its meant for BBQ. trying to act cool when im not. WAHS! stupid stupid stupid..
tml s palette day. a chance to learn tennis. OMG.. kindda hope tml PSI is more than 100. den dun have to be outside whole morning playing the green ball game le. oh by the way i hope tml s palette s a success.. cos im one of the few in-charges. tis time palette is under the wing of all committee's treasurer and secretary. LOL. is girl power ok. and we spent some time figuring out the lesson plan. waste quite a number of brain cells. so it must be a SUCCESS! yayaya.
tis afternoon discovered pjoan online, and so chatted with her. we were talking about driftness from friendships.. i confided my fears in her. but after that, she told me no such thing la. and i sorta felt better. grinz. im still the same old pcharis. zzz. always think too much. den pjoan said she was gg to meet her old frens. i wish her luck. but im pretty confident that she wun lose out la. that chatty personality of hers see her old frens sure chatter non-stop de. AM I RIGHT, pjoan? give me good news.
yesterday went out with my old fren. not really that old. but she wasnt brand new either. and she is fatbird. spent almost half my fortune yesterday lo. i bought all my inheritance along. which is roughly dot dot. cant say. but anyway. had an enjoyable time. and i ended the day with a backache and stomachache. rubbish wad.. ate too full that i cant even walk properly.. finally caught the movie rob-b-hood! and its so superb, though behind is very very sad. the BB almost died lei. the BB was so adorable!! feel like pinching his cheeks. wonder who his parents are? must be fortunate ones to produce a ultra kawaii baby and a baby movie star at such age. but ultimately is an overall comedy. and i think im in love with louis koo. he is so funny in the show, acting the BB's mommy. and quite overprotective. and there is guest appearances by daniel wu and nicholas tse, both are hunkies yet they acted a small part of brokeback mountain. they were so gay in the show, especially daniel who takes a liking to nicholas and comment louis being shuai ge.. how gross. LOL. also there is a small part when the baby sucks jackie chan's nipple. LOL. must think he has his milk there. how kiddish. but nevertheless it s five-thumb show. i didnt waste my 7 bucks for nothing. somemore the time frame is 134 minutes.
haha. im gg to buy XMEN: the last stand tml. as my brother and i are sharing the cost. he said da vinci code next week, buy xmen first. obviously hugh jackman won the battle against tom hanks right? if me, i would buy xmen too. mayb i buy da vinci on sat. after the day of bbq.
oo. btw guess wad. the verdict was. my dad gave me 10 bucks for BBQ. im just too paiseh to get money from him las.. if my mom. no problem.. i was prepared to play guessing game with my mom in order to win the five bucks. but she. that timid woman, afraid to lose again. because i always win her one. mom couldnt part her five dollar with me. hais.. so sad.. my mom even more stingy than me. LOL.

ROB-B-HOOD MV: very kawaii.

amazing

its amazing that i ll see someone so crestfallen because of some thing that had happened..
dont we all learn to forgive? haix...
today must be the most ridiculous day i ever have..
>.< but who cares?
i mean seriously.. who gives a damn of me.. nobody i guess.
sometimes i wish... i am just a tiny organism.. who has the ability to learn not how to feel.. not how to think so much.. and not how to deal with many many problems.. but perhaps.. im already a tiny organism le.. just that i didnt notice.. because i feel so small when im in a group.. i have no voice, or rather i just didnt want to speak up.. i feel that my head is spinning because all the people look oversized to me.. and they are all doing their own businesses. but me.. i dunno what im doing..
spinning some tall-tales? being ignorant..
thats wad im most good at.. i guess. pretendance.. oh SHUT UP. that ll be a better day tml. so just hang on until u see ur favourite peeps. and let that window of yours close for awhile.. even though ur heart is already torn into pieces and bleeding like mad.. i guess this is the really me speaking tonight..

so tired of my life.. m already breaking down..

promos finally come to an end.

THE END.
its the last day of promos.
we started the procession with GP and we ended the parade with fireworks a.k.a physics. furthermore, its mid-autumn festival today! happy mooncaking peeps. the moon is large and round tonight. may all couples have their wishes come true.
im so happy today. not because of exams. but its the first time i lend someone read my chinese manuscript. and she said she like the story seriously. a pity im only on page 20. i think i am a better chinese writer than an english one. cause can express myself better in chinese language.
thanks p. bobo. thanks for ur encouragement! i shall ganbate!

great inheritance!

ah! i found a new korea drama le! ^^ name is great inheritance/ great expectations/ kindergarten love. wahaha.. its acted by my all time favourite actor kim jae won. =D nice lehs. he acting as a gangster somemore. so shuai! ?? anyway hohs, i cant watch the show from youtube.. SO DISAPPOINTING! cause the provider didnt upload every espisode.. but i watch the first ten minutes le. is so nice. just like sassy girl: chun hyang, and my girl. thats because they have the same producer team mah.. slacking right now.. and trying to write a review. guess i have to wait a few months for the sale of its vcd. hais. so sads.. i have to indulge in other shows instead.. -_- maybe watch the vineyard man by yoon eun hye bah. mom is saying that im addicted to kdramas now.. which is true. anyways.. spend 7 plus on tibits.. which i quite regretted.. hais. can use it to buy the "lost" thumbdrive. think i have to ask my mom subsidise part of it le. im so broke..

two more days to FREEDOM a.k.a doom, sc there is CCA exchange and PW to do afterthen..

i survived again. ^^

yoohoo. its me again. i survived!!! the world's fearsome subject is gone, vanished, disappeared. YEAH! now left only H1 physics on fri. im so =D. now watching national geographic from the five-day-old installed scv. im quite upset actually because starhub had discovered my greatest secret and cut off the transmission to all other channels yesterday around 145pm bah. so meepok la. im watching channel 55, the new hongkong series featuring tao da yu, i still remember he used to be my favourite idol in the 90s lo. im so disappointed. why cant they like give me more preview? or wait for me to finish watching the show mah. meepok.. haix.. no more watching of FREE channel 55 le..
actually i quite agree with wad old tortoise said in his blog.. a few peeps told me they are going to retain. and im pretty unsure of my plight myself. im worried for them, as much as for mine. wad if they are or i am really gone next year.. (touchwood) i dun even dare to even think about it.. face it.. what is 1s13 without who and who? mayb mayb... i knew i flunked a few subjects.. and i just recalled writing steve irwin killed by starfish in my GP essay. oh my gosh.. im screwed la. LOL.. starfish? which peeps died of starfish stung? since when starfish got stings? hopefully tis is just me and my fantasy. not the real one..
i seriously hope to see we promote to the next level and graduate in 2007. get out of SR soon, and start doing our favourite course in university. of course, studying has never been a favourite part of modern day students. me, i detest the process but i enjoy the fruits of labour. heheh, chim for you to understand right?

>> what will become of me if i was born in a developing countries, like burma, vietnam?

worry about chemistry


thanks cofy. was overwhelmed when i received it in the midst of chemistry revision. it really motivated me to study harder. hahas.. see how much help you have given me.. good lo. u finish ur promos on thurs. poor me still have physic paper. haix.. LOL. i took a picture cos. the stickers on the envelope and letter are really CUTE! but i shant reveal the content in the letter. haha.

CHEMISTRY DOWN LOH! i really must practice speed and accuracy for chem paper leh. >.< GANBATE! three more days to freedom. and four more days to mooncake festival. ^^ yummy. econs econs.. is another paper that i have to race against time liao.. 4 essay questions. @@

psycho maths

its the third day of promos. and its math paper today. i think im deemed as a sinner le la.. who ask me never work hard for the paper.. how should i say? the paper is meant to be an easy one. but again.. i left out the part two of last question. not that i dunno how to do.. but i just didnt see it. zzz. my eyesight is really failing.. i cant really see the HUGE clock in front.. it was a blur.. even mr lai. i see only his outline not his face.. AHS.. gotta change spects after promos bah.. three more papers to go. fighting! chemistry tml. (my weakest subject, =( hehes.)

yesterday, i made a poster to motivate myself. its quite plain.. but then i just stick on the wall. my mom must think i went crazy le.. lazy fatass.. LOL.
GOAL: NUS! (maths/chinese)
aja = go
aja aja = go go!
extracted from full house.
discovered something today. cyworld! so its some sort of "korean friendster". i saw it once from wonderful life, when kim jae won was using the page for his daughter's development. and i thot it was totally cool website. i hope cyworld come singapore soon!!! den i can use it. and many peeps can benefit too. ^^ by the way.. i think i spoilt the desktop desk.. one of the legs has broken.. so now.. the computer is placing in a strange angle, while i typed.. get wad i mean? LOL..