hUiLiN 
Friday, June 2
is it too early to think about these?
frankly i dont how to begin this particular entry.. i m feeling lost and helpless. after living for sixteen years and who knows how many days in this bizzare world, suddenly i feel i dont know what i m doing.. everyone exists for a reason. some survive for love, others live to pursue their dreams, but very few are the ignorant, people who take every day for granted, and have no idea where they are going in life.
i guess i belong to one of the fews.
perhaps i've been watching too many dramas lately, that i begin to wonder. because if you go and read the profiles of the actors and actresses, you can see that many of them are actually university graduates, some even from the Ivy leagues. and yet, they chose an acting career. see, this world is becoming more and more materialistic, and conscious of qualifications one has. suddenly i realise the importance of admitting university in singapore, a place where people see education standard over experience. but then again, having some money wont harm, but in fact, it may bring you to greater heights...
then wad about me? miss charis chia hui lin
What do i exactly want in my life?
you cant expect me to...
1) find a boyfriend at 17, get married, and be a Desperate Housewife? [no way... my looks are too ordinary, plump, and i'm poor. no one wants me. hahs. besides, my mom went to a fortune teller before that if i marry before the age of 30, i sure ll have a divorce. so...] marriage? siao..
2) give up my JC curriculum, and switch to a poly life? hahaha. the first thing that come to my mind when i received my prelim results around october last year, no, i m not going to a poly. because my wardrobe has limited choices, my clothes still look kind of kiddish. it's still under renovation... the other reason i chose not to go is, i dont know what to study in a polytechnic. they offered so many courses. what if the course i choose end up i dont like it at all. what shall i do then? spend another couple of years mugging? hahas..
3) go abroad study, somewhere like australia, etc... i really like that. if given a chance, i would really go overseas and experience that type of school life. studying in singapore is like walking in the streets of NEW YORK CITY. everyone is moving so fast that you have hard time keeping up with them, this is also because they know what they want in their life. be a successful lawyer, noble doctor, etc... but you think my dad prints cash? everytime sees him come home after a whole day of driving, the money he earns.. is hard-earned lo... how can anyhow spend?
this is so unjust. why is it that in this society, a person with very little education, cant they find a decent job? and they actually have to slog their life doing?
anyway its quite long, i doubt anyone will read it.. so no offence, if you read something, and you dont feel quite right about it.. is just me, hl milk venting her frustration again...