hUiLiN 
Wednesday, October 25
LDN
wad exactly is wrong with me? havent i made the promise to get over? yet, im doing it again... ARGHs.. just couldnt stand myself. i hate myself.. why do i have to be so conscious over it?!? is not as though its a big deal.. i wanna CHANGE! but i cant.. there seems to be an invisible force behind controlling me and my thoughts.. right now, im doing things that i dun wanna do.. and no one is stopping me.. im so tired.. so tired.. help me please.. maybe you are right when you said scorpions are self-centered people.. but i dun want to be one of them.. maybe you are right.. perhaps i just like you too much.. thats why it stirred my jealousy.. then again.. im not the kind of person you think i am.. anyway.. i really ll change for the better. and hope you dun mind my childishness.. sick of school..
yesterday, forced to attend the FGD, aka focus group discussion.. and have to forgo a chance of watching deathnote with fairy he and weini.. very very disappointed.. and obviously buay song.. always like to give short notices one.. and i am one of those who really loathes short notices.. but anyway.. FGD is _____. fill in the blank yourself.. luckily for me, meiling, tina, jungui, jiaqing and jeremy attended too.. so i didnt feel alone.. out of all, jiaqing spoke the most.. saying to ban all carbonated drinks in school. zzz.. then the part on "the food sold in canteen is healthy" received the most comments from us. LOL. someone mentioned that she found a worm in her food and yet the stall vendor said the food is cooked, she can still eat. OMG.. that is pretty ridiculous. and another one said the fish and chips sold is over priced.. because the fish is so small and yet contains 70% of flour. laugh out loud. that really stirs alot of commotion. that means 30 percent of real meat inside onli. has. anyways.. that is the highlight of the discussion i guess..
- going crazy