hUiLiN 
Monday, October 30
omg..
i think i am screwed.. i cant believe i heard angeline say that.. that means other hundreds of people may have also watched the video, including him maybe.. the word must have spreaded to him le.. WAHS.. how am i gg to face the people in school now.. especially him.. gosh.. i feel like burying myself in the sand.. but no sand at my hse lei. wah sai~ so murder myself lahs..
i think this is becoming true.. i keep thinking of wanting to see ... but the person just never appear.. is it an infatuation? like what jamie said? hahas.. im felt ridiculous at times.. she then told me wad i should have already expected. so i was neither shocked nor surprised. just "hoh, is it? ..." deep down inside, i just know it could never have been true..
it was just an infatuation.. i dun even noe the meaning, until phebe told me.. perhaps when she told me.. or i should just check out dictionary.com
infatuation
n 1: foolish and usually extravagant passion or love or admiration 2: temporary love of an adolescent [syn: puppy love, calf love, crush] 3: an object of extravagant short-lived passion
WordNet ® 2.0, © 2003 Princeton University
princeton university. so the results should be quite reliable la.. but hoh.. wad phebe told me was like somebody because of his looks, the surface stuff la. over phebe who is currently a student TJC, and the definition from princeton uni, i chose to believe princeton professors. lol.. something else to add, den if that s the case, yes, i think this thing is only temporary. it will fade away in due time. WAHAHA.. yipee. i shant be bothered by it liaos..
two more days to big dae. lol. so happy ;) ahhs .. but hoh.. i cant go out .. wad s the use of stayin at hme on ur big dae? stupid alvl chinese. either u come early or u come late. why must u treat me this way.. then again, i alr declared long ago that i hate M.o.D.. in case of some spyware, i changed the lettering.. so figure out yourself. aja fighting to peeps takin chinese and OP. ganbate. i must rly get an A for chinese sia. if not prepare some rope for me la.. hais.. gtg. on another bright side, i completed my I&R with the help of sherry and encouragement from phebe. grinx. dun wry sherry, i didnt copy urs. except mayb some nice phrases la.. i shall make this confession. im so sry.. ur english really tempted me. but i sweared its is only less than 1% that i copied!